Today I did something I thought I was done doing.  I don’t know what this means…but damn, it felt good.

It’s been a while since I’ve actually written anything down.  It’s probably due to the hectic, crazy and downright obnoxious life I’m living at the moment.  My life this year has thrown some crazy things my way, first with my housing, my family (of course is always on top this list), and a bunch of tiny little things in between.

I’m happy to say I’ve met some incredible people this year and even on top of that, made the bonds with the friends I had before now even stronger.  College is a learning experience…I feel like these people (and they know who they are) are not just friends, but a part of my family.  I could see myself after I move out of home celebrating Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years with this family instead of my biological one.  I don’t know whether or not that’s such a good thing, but it sure makes me smile.  I get to celebrate my first Thanksgiving with different people this year, besides my family, and I can’t wait.  It’s going to be different, but I’m excited to make my toast to this family and really acknowledge the things they have done for me and express these feelings I have for them.

I’ve been battling something inside myself for the past few weeks, and I finally feel like I’m winning.  After my car accident, I looked at this world I live in completely different.  I could have died…  It’s a scary thought to admit but I think for some reason, someone up there was trying to tell me something.  I feel as if I were taking my life for granted before the incident, and to almost have life slip away from me really makes me appreciate the things I have.  I’m ready to live my life to the fullest, finally with no regrets, and do what makes me happy.  Sometimes doing what makes me happy, what is best for ME puts me in a hard situation, but from what I’m seeing, it’s all worth it in the end.

“Good judgment comes from experience.  Experience comes from bad judgment.”  Along with all that bad judgment, however, are amazing memories I will never forget.  This quote spoke to me and I’m thankful someone sent it to me.  It’s made me realize all the shit and pain that happens in the past, really does teach us a lesson.  It’s just up to that individual to take it as a lesson, a life one, and move on.  I have a lot of trouble moving on from the past…but I think I’m really getting the hang of it, especially this year, and I’m moving on…Slowly but surely, I’m bound to be exactly what I aim for and the people that are around me now are the encouragement I need to become this ideal.

I think I need to go to my thinking place.

It’s a lobster genocide.